Maybe Trying isn't Enough

I TRIED. I tried really hard to work with you. To LOVE you. To see things your way. I really tried. But I'm done trying. I wanted this to work. You & me. I wanted to help you and to learn together. I wanted us to be a team. I wanted to share ideas and brainstorm. I wanted to stress together and conquer together and win. I didn't want to do it alone. I wanted to do it with YOU.

And for a while. I thought it would work. You & me, we were laughing and brainstorming and working. Our IDEAS were building off of each other. It was like our brains were connected. We were like fire. Our SKILLS and talent and expertise were amazing and before I knew it, I felt ready and accomplished and prepared.

But I wasn't.

I wasn't prepared for what was going to happen. I wasn't prepared to be let down by the one person I decided to trust. I wasn't prepared to sink so low that I could no longer be motivated to do anything. I was let down. I was hurt and I was alone. The world was dark and the world was scary.

I wanted to do like you again. I wanted to still be friends and maybe even trust you again. I wanted to listen to your story and to share mine. I wanted to learn from you and understand your separate life. I wanted to forgive you. But I was DONE trying, it was too late. I tried to get rid of this grudge in between our relationship. I TRIED.

I really TRIED.