So I know this blog is on the depressing side. But its where I turn to when I feel completely lost and hopeless. I've been noticing how many people in my life try to (or succeed in) manipulating me. Its a constant part of a lot of my main relationships. With a good friend of mine, my mother and my boyfriend. My mom says its because those are the types of people I attract, the kind of people I can't really avoid. Sometimes I wonder if that's a thing. Do I attract them because my mom is that way, so those are the kinds of people I'm used to? Or maybe I just have really bad luck. I just feel on the verge of tears. Constantly. I just wish there were more reasons to be happy in my life. Or at least, less to be sad about. I love my job and all my theater opportunities. My friends, family, and relationship are really stressing me out right now and I wish they'd all just stop. Its hard to be happy when they're all bugging me so much. Its frustrating.
"Whatever you want" is a phrase I've learned to say a lot to the people in my life. Its just easier to give them what they want then to try to explain how I feel. Its also a phrase my friend uses a lot to manipulate me into doing what she wants, not whatever I want. It sucks because the phrase had totally flipped but still is on the wrong side for me. I don't understand how this all happened but I'm really ready for it all to go away.
"Whatever you want" is a phrase I've learned to say a lot to the people in my life. Its just easier to give them what they want then to try to explain how I feel. Its also a phrase my friend uses a lot to manipulate me into doing what she wants, not whatever I want. It sucks because the phrase had totally flipped but still is on the wrong side for me. I don't understand how this all happened but I'm really ready for it all to go away.
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